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THE FOLLOWING ARE LYRICS TO THE SONGS ON ABRAHAM'S UPCOMING ACOUSTIC DEMO. CHECK THE TOUR PAGE OF THIS WEBSITE TO SEE WHERE ABRAHAM WILL BE PERFORMING THESE SONGS.

PORCELAIN
 
Porcelain was sitting on a shelf
Where she was put so many years ago
Collecting more dust everyday
Nobody ever saw it show
Anytime somebody came around
Porcelain was always on display
She just wants to be used
Be a little dirty for a day

If you've never seen Porcelain
She's strong, but she can be broken
That doesn't mean ignore her
Understand where she's been

Porcelain has something no one sees
A secret that runs along her back
One night this guy just threw her down
Ever since then she's had a crack
Flowers hide most of the scar
But you can't cover up that kind of past
Lying on the kitchen floor
Surrounded by a bunch of broken glass

If you've never seen Porcelain
She's strong, but she can be broken
That doesn't mean ignore her
Understand where she's been

More beautiful than anything
More to her than just her skin
Take her out tonight
Let the reflection begin
Take her out tonight
Let the reflection begin

BRUISES

so maybe im afraid of it all
maybe im too stubborn to fall
so tempted to push it all away
but somethings forcing me to make it stay

this feeling of having you within
is starting to get under my skin

whenever im in pain
you seem to be there
the blood rushes through me
and i can feel that you care
you hang around
til im healing inside
thats why i show
my bruises with pride

there'll be times when ill be black and blue
so easy to blame it all on you
there'll be times when ill be feeling cold
nothing that you'd ever want to hold

but i know that ill make it through
cause inside of me there is you

whenever im in pain
you seem to be there
the blood rushes through me
and i can feel that you care
you hang around
til im healing inside
thats why i show
my bruises with pride

there'll be times when ill be black and blue
so easy to blame it all on you

EMPTY ROOM

Im sitting in a circle
and everyone around is painted blue
telling all these stories
of how the world has treated me and you
stories of loss it seems
how no one ever wants to still be true
they're here to find a mirror
that doesn't show themselves as being blue

I step across the hall
because blue is just not how i picture me
open up another door
and everybody in there's painted green
they're throwing around numbers
in hope that they can buy themself a dream
but everybodys angry
everybody in there wants to scream
 
Im up against a wall in the hallway
letting myself fall to the floor
So confused about the world i live in
Dont think i can take another door
 
A man comes from another door
With a gush of blood coming from his head
He says "i just can't take it
everybody in there's colored red
just like them, im bleeding
But ill be damned to let it get to my head"
as he turns, he disappears
but not before i heard what he said
 
Im up against a wall in the hallway
letting myself fall to the floor
So confused about the world i live in
Dont think i can take another door
 
The last door opens on its own
and nobody seems to be in sight
I crawl into the room to see
all the walls are painted black and white
moon shines on the window sill
gives this empty room its only light
i think i'll hide out here
until the world can paint itself right

 
THE ASHES OF YOUR LOVE AFFAIR
 
baby i now know why you were never scared
baby im sorry you felt i was never there
they say "you should die for those you love"
and its written stone how much you really cared
ive been going through everything we ever owned
i only now see signs that say "beware"
no roses, cards or pictures of any kind
but lighters and matches are scattered everywhere
 
I think im gonna let you out of here
let you breath the memories in the air
go be with the ashes
the ashes of your love affair
 
maybe you just needed room to breath
maybe you found love in the smoke
the kind of love you couldnt get from me
maybe love is learning not to choke
all i know is everything is changed
and all my clothes now reek of the past
something that i use to find offensive
reminds me of the love i never had
 
i think im gonna let you out of here
let you breath the memories in the air
go be with the ashes
the ashes of your love affair
 
there's a cigarette lying smothered in an ashtray
wondering if your ever coming back
i wish that i was smothered in an ashtray
wondering if your ever coming back
 

SACRIFICE
 
im not man enough
to sacrifice myself for someone else
even if its someone i love
cause im so afraid
of being the one who needs someone to
sacrifice themself for me
 
would you sacrifice yourself for me
put your feelings aside for the sake of me
all it takes to live in paradise
is just a little bit of sacrifice
 
would you change your mood
for the mood im in
would you take the sour
for the saccharine
would you take the cold
over the summer sun
would you take a bullet
for your only one
 
would you sacrifice yourself for me
put your feelings aside for the sake of me
all it takes to live in paradise
is just a little bit of sacrifice
 
im not man enough
to sacrifice myself for someone else
even if its someone i love
cause im so afraid
of being the one who needs someone to
sacrifice themself for me
but im learning to be
someone who would
 
sacrifice themself for you
put their feelings aside for the sake of you
all it takes to live in paradise
is just a little bit of sacrifice
 
GUESSING TEARS*
 
I can hear in her voice how i hurt her
She just stays silent now
She say if I love her, I'd already know
She tells me to figure it out

Now I'm so afraid Im gonna hurt again
I still dont now what Im not to do
Her silence is causing time to disappear
Sounds like love's going too

I'm longing for some kind of voice
Something that says how she feels
Cause I cant control her emotions
Tired of just guessing tears

When she's like this, she's hard to be around
So I call up the guys to go out
And I meet a girl, who has a nice smile
Something I no longer see now
 
Lost in emotions, something comes over me
I wake up in another's bedroom
I know it's not love,
cause I love someone else
Im just trying to black out the blue

I'm longing for some kind of voice
Something that says how she feels
Cause I cant control her emotions
Tired of just guessing tears

Now Im crying too, im so lost and confused
Where do we go from here
The less we talk, the more pain takes control
Causing us to run in fear 

To start doing things that we dont want to do
Things that will just add more tears
Whatever's love left, we've got to sit and talk
Before we're both guessing tears

IM DYING
 
how do i tell my loved ones that im dying
everyday they're asking if im ok
how do i tell them the medications failing
and nothing that i try will stop the pain
 
the doctors say ive only got months to live
something's growing inside of me
they're not sure what it is
so theres no hope in finding me a cure
although they're trying
 
so how do i tell my loved ones that im dying
everyday they're asking if im ok
how do i tell them their love wont be good enough
but i can take with me on my way above
 
maybe this is how its meant to be
maybe this life wasnt meant for me
maybe there's no point in all this fighting
so how do i tell my loved ones im not trying
and how do i tell my loved ones im ok with dying
 

All songs written by Abraham except:
* Written by Abraham and Chris Petrovich
All songs copywritten through government.
Copyright,  2002

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